My Family Tree's Losing All Its Leaves

[magneticfields]

Who: Charles and Erik
What: Maybe they should talk about how easily Erik smashed Charles' doppelgänger? Or the fact that Jean and Raven died like a month ago? Or maybe they'll continue to ignore all that and bicker about the chore chart. Who knows.
Where: Their room
When: Evening, during the pool party
Warnings: Talk of grief, murder, dead children. Probably no smut in this one, though.



[ Erik comes home late, a he usually does. He works as many hours as he can, banking whatever money, secrets, and favors he can get his hands on. The rest of his time is spent exploring as much of the city as he can access without rousing suspicion, or in the basement of the bar tinkering on things. The truth is, he's been remarkably scarce since they moved in together. Or it's his normal amount of scarce, there just usually isn't anybody around to notice it.

He takes off his jacket and his shoes. ]

Miss me?

[ He smiles and bends to kiss the top of Charles' head. ]

Or were you having too much fun in the lazy river?

Comments

[axiomed]

[ charles shifts closer, eyeing him. ]

It seems rather tame as a distraction. Are you concerned?

[magneticfields]

[ Erik turns on his side to face Charles, brow furrowing slightly. ]

That's what's so insidious about it. There's always some tame distraction when we should stay focused on our missions.

[axiomed]

[ charles gives a small nod. ]

The timing is certainly suspect.

[magneticfields]

The timing is constant. [ He frowns. ] There's always just enough happening to keep us distracted, always enough new people arriving to keep us at square one. Just perfectly calibrated to keep us from getting any traction.

[ He sighs. ]

[axiomed]

[ he lets out a quiet exhales at that, his fingers reaching out to stroke erik's hair. ]

It is a system. Dismantling a system takes time.

[magneticfields]

[ Erik sighs softly, some tension seeping from him as Charles strokes his hair. He reaches to curl his fingers around Charles' wrist and turns his head to press a kiss to his palm. ]

I don't want time. I want to take you home.

[axiomed]

[ a few moments of silence follows. ]

My home is with you. I can wait a little longer to get there.

[ there's a pang in his heart, a mansion in his eyes that he blinks away quickly. charles didn't want to mire his sentiment in regret. ]

[magneticfields]

[ Erik does pout slightly. ]

I have it all arranged, you know. I built my own cottage so I didn't have to answer any questions about why everything is so low to the ground. There's no stairs to anywhere.

[ He's quiet a moment, thinking of how he had tried to convince himself it was merely an aesthetic choice. How he never had any real hope of Charels coming to even see what he had built, let alone live there. How many years it's been since he was ready for this, but couldn't find the courage to ask.

How terrified he was on the way to Paris, still unsure that Charles would accept his invitation. The feeling that this was his last chance.

He's pouting now. ]

Tired of waiting. [ He mutters sullenly. ]

[axiomed]

[ charles can't help the light chuckle as he presses a kiss to erik's cheek. ]

As am I. But I can hold out for a while.

[magneticfields]

[ Erik reaches to slip is harm around Charles' waist and tug him closer, encouraging him to get into the bed with him. ]

I've made you hold out too long already. We shouldn't be here. I want you somewhere safe where we can build something real together.

[axiomed]

I know.

[ he had been looking forward to it as well. but charles . . . well, charles can't really complain. he's lucky. he knows it. the regret and guilt still pulls at his thoughts. ]

But it will happen. This place won't stop it.

[magneticfields]

[ Charles makes no move to get into bed with him, so Erik stops trying. There's a difference between encouraging and forcing and he won't cross that line.

He doesn't answer right away. He feels his age more than before. They've already wasted so much time. So many decades. The doubts are gathering that maybe it just won't ever happen. There will always be some obstacle, some roadblock. If they won't provide it, the universe will. But he can't say any of that. He's already plagued Charles with his personal doubts about their immediate circumstances and his own dangerous behavior. He's not going to start whining about the cosmic ones.

Eventually: ]

How was your day?

[axiomed]

[ charles swats his shoulders lightly, the faint edges of amusement trickling into erik's consciousness as he slowly pulls himself onto the bed. he's more used to doing it on his own and sometimes he forgets. but he does reach to squeeze erik's hand in gratitude. ]

Strange. I've never really worked before so it takes a little getting used to. At least I'm starting to have a better, more solid appreciation for the service industry.

[magneticfields]

[ Erik burrows his face against Charles' shoulder and laughs softly. He breathes him in, feeling the weight of him in his arms, the warmth of his body against his. All of his unhappiness about their situation feeling farther away, more manageable, with the scent of Charles in his nose and the feeling of his fond amusement in his thoughts. It still doesn't seem real after so many decades. ]

Try not to get too many callouses. [ He folds his fingers around Charles' and lifts them to his lips. ] I like your soft hands.

[axiomed]

[ charles shakes his head fondly, smothering a quick laugh. his fingers find erik's neck, stroking down to the center of his spine, rinse, repeat. ]

I think there was a compliment somewhere in there. But not to worry, I don't think I'm in any danger of that.

[magneticfields]

[ Erik's lids flutter closed as tension slowly seeps from him. ]

I could try for a more straightforward compliment, but I don't want to over-inflate your ego.

[ He murmurs, smirking. As if he's the humble one. ]

[axiomed]

[ charles hums, a rumble in his chest. ]

Yes, that could be rather dangerous.

[magneticfields]

[ Erik hums in agreement as he slowly wraps around Charles. ]

It may not even be possible, to be perfectly honest.

[axiomed]

[ charles leans closer, resting his head on erik's shoulder. ]

I wonder.

[ the topic of his ego feels like a loaded one, one charles hasn't fulled touched since jean perished. ]

[magneticfields]

[ Erik doesn't miss that shift toward melancholy. As much as he's been living in his own pink bubble of happiness, he knows that Charles is still struggling with his grief. Erik himself is still struggling with his grief over Nina. He's had more time to process it, come to terms with it, wrestle it into a shape and form that is no longer debilitating. He presses his lips to Charles' temple. ]

She's been on your mind.

[ He murmurs, his tone soft and gentle as his kiss. ]

[axiomed]

[ there's a wisp of a laugh, barely a chuckle and a cross between a sigh. his arms wrap themselves around erik. ]

All of it has been on my mind. I've never been good with my own feelings.

[ tackling his own on top of everyone else's was too much long ago. and though he's long accepted this is the way it must be, that this is an intrinsic part of him, another part misses being numb all over. ]

[magneticfields]

For what it's worth, you're handling it much better than I did.

[ Pitch black humor is the sort of thing that has kept him sane. If he is sane. Maybe it's evidence of the contrary. He caresses Charles' head, feeling a powerful rush of conflicting emotions at the memory. Grief for his family, shame for his actions, rage at Apocalypse for taking advantage of him in his weakened state, pride at how they managed to defeat him after all, and overwhelming love for Charles. The lifeline that dragged Erik out of the black pit he had jumped into at the start of all that. ]

You took responsibility for your errors in judgment. You were able to apologize to her. She knew how much you loved her. That's not nothing.