Grace Is Gone

[skyward_eyes]

WHO: Nida Nomura, Some Closed Starters, Otherwise OTA
WHAT: Drinking with Wanda, Missing Persons Announcement, Dangerous habits
WHERE: Wanda's Room, Roof of Dorms
WHEN: August 1st - 7th
WARNINGS: Drinking, Grieving, Possible mentions of death and self-harm.


One Drink To Remember - Closed to Wanda

When he wakes up, bed mostly cold, arms empty, no noise from familiar breathing, his heart aches. This hadn't happened yet, not to someone he knew. Not so far as he knew. Because it definitely hadn't been a year. Not even close. Not even...

Within an hour he's gone to the store and come back, and is knocking on another door in the dorm. Pounding really. He's got a nice tall bottle of vodka, grief in his heart, and someone that needs to know before anyone else. Especially since he couldn't find their information on the network anymore.




Then Another To Forget - OTA

This isn't what he's supposed to do. He knows that. It's not healthy, it's not smart, and it's definitely not what he should be doing, but hey, who needs good life choices? In this case the choice manifests in the form of a young man lying on the edge of the building, a bottle of vodka near at hand, claimed every few minutes for a swig as he stares up at the sky above him.

Is this a risky place to be, especially tipsy? Hell yes. Does Nida care? No. But he does flinch when the door to the roof opens? Yes. Is that possibly bad? Yes.

"Close the door," he'll call, his voice a bit uneven. "You're letting the warm out."

Which he thinks is pretty funny, leaving him chuckling.




Network Post - Audio Only

[Definitely Nida's voice, but also very clearly slurred just enough to imply someone has been drinking. Probably more than he should. Which is any at all.]

For those who would care? Billy Kaplan and Tommy Shepherd are gone.

Filtered to Seifer

Yes, I know. You're disappointed and I shouldn't be drinking. Whatever. Can I borrow Eos for a few nights?


[OOC: Nida is going to be in a bad emotional state, and mostly walking through life a bit broken. He's cool to have custom starters for anyone, just directly message me, hit me on plurk churbooseanon or discord (Churby#4290). I can have something ready rather easily.]

Comments

[skyward_eyes]

Squall wanted me to come back too.

[But there's the problem. Seifer's alive back home. Nida... might not be. He could cease to exist by going home.]

Seifer, you should go back. To Balamb. Squall can't do it on his own. Garden is shit. It's horrid. It's bad juju.

[Yeah, real mature statement there.]

[firacrux]

[There's a faint frown and a nod. Yeah... He remembers. But there's a chance, right?]

I can't leave you alone.

[What would he do without his brother? Do they want to risk going back to find out if Nida made it through or not? If only someone would come along from later who could confirm for them. He does snort in amusement at the juju.]

You're probably right about all of that, the hell am I going to help? All I do is fuck things up, remember?

[skyward_eyes]

Really?

[Nida rolls his eyes at the idea that Seifer fucks things up. Seifer's been doing a LOT to fix Nida up. And Nida's a mess.]

You'd be able to drive Squall to actually DO the things he knows would improve Garden, but would be too scared to do. And hell, there's even the fact that Garden doesn't even have it's own weaponsmith. Even if the place wants to keep training people, older people, the fact that kids have to use old shared weapons and then SAVE UP gil from their stipends to buy real weapons is wrong. And Squall? Would never be a good teacher for gunblades. You could be. There's a lot of things you could do.

[But Nida, going back? That's a terrifying thing he can't even touch.

Still, the conversation is holding his attention enough that he's abandoned the bottle, instead getting drunk on conversation. Which is sobering him slowly.]

[firacrux]

[Nida's the fluke, history has been very different. Or did he forget Seifer's long illustrious career of failures? They're both a mess maybe that's why they get along so well.

Still, he does present some good points. Several, really, especially the lack of an on-site weaponsmith. He huffs a laugh.]

Could you imagine him tryin' to teach a bunch of kids? He'd get impatient and leave.

[Worst teacher ever. Still, these are great points, and maybe there's something to them. Seifer's still not sold on the abandoning Nida part though.]

[skyward_eyes]

Which of course would leave them wondering if they were just the worst people ever. And they'd give up the weapon and their idol worship. No, they'd need discipline and support. The sort you'd be better at giving.

[Is he really trying to talk Seifer into going home? Apparently yes. After all, if Squall can fuck with memories and the past once back home, surely he can do it again to let him help Seifer. They're even from more or less the same point in time.]

[firacrux]

Tch. What gives you that idea?

[Please continue, he likes the ego boost. It is tempting, that offer of a home and a purpose. Of maybe doing better than was done to him. Still that leaves the question of Nida.]

And what about you? What am I gonna do without my brother?

[skyward_eyes]

Me? I... I don't know. Maybe Jason will let me follow him. If not him... I don't know. I'll try and find something.

[Somewhere to go. Something to be. But it won't be home. Death is a thing.]

[firacrux]

[Seifer just frowns, clearly torn and conflicted now. If Nida's not home, then what's the point of going back? Sure maybe he could help improve things, maybe, but if not? Then he'll be out the only family he has while he's at it.

It's not a very good choice. And not knowing whether or not Nida's alive... That's killing him too.]

[skyward_eyes]

This isn't an easy decision, Seifer. But we might have some time to think about it.

[What if he doesn't want to go home and forget what real love felt like?]

[firacrux]

[He doesn't want to go home and forget either.]

Think it was easier not believing there was a chance.

[He gripes.]

[skyward_eyes]

[They'd be so much worse off at home.]

We could... go with Jason together.

[firacrux]

[They really would.]

We could. That might be our best option.

[Jason could use family too.]

[skyward_eyes]

Then we'll think about that. When the time comes. We've got a while.