They die for love too, don't they, Squall? Wasn't Squall willing to die for Rinoa?
But there you are, the questions. The questions that Squall shouldn't want to know, right? Because of what it might set them into. The tracks of life, they can't escape them.
"I've never gone home since. And I don't want to. I don't want to be dead. I... Back there I won't remember, back there I will want to be dead, Squall."
There's a slightly panicked edge to his voice, and he starts pacing. Starts pacing back and forth.
"You did, but you didn't know what was going you happen. You sent us on a mission. Elijah and I work together so well. Worked together so well. We'd been sleeping together for years before that, before I even took my SeeD exam. He wasn't at Garden when we graduated, or I would have danced with him at the party. He- we... It was the best nine months of my life, Squall, at least back home. Sure, some of it sucked, but we moved from lovers to boyfriends and he made me feel so good. And the whole time the target you'd sent us to seek out? It was him."
Betrayal. Surely that was something Squall could understand. Because Seifer had seemingly betrayed him. It makes Nida sick to think about.
"I beat Boyce, his uncle. The man orchestrated it all. He was... the man I thought I loved died for him, thinking it was his own idea. And you never even knew I loved him. You NEVER would have let me go back to my room if you had. No one knew. No one knows."
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But there you are, the questions. The questions that Squall shouldn't want to know, right? Because of what it might set them into. The tracks of life, they can't escape them.
"I've never gone home since. And I don't want to. I don't want to be dead. I... Back there I won't remember, back there I will want to be dead, Squall."
There's a slightly panicked edge to his voice, and he starts pacing. Starts pacing back and forth.
"You did, but you didn't know what was going you happen. You sent us on a mission. Elijah and I work together so well. Worked together so well. We'd been sleeping together for years before that, before I even took my SeeD exam. He wasn't at Garden when we graduated, or I would have danced with him at the party. He- we... It was the best nine months of my life, Squall, at least back home. Sure, some of it sucked, but we moved from lovers to boyfriends and he made me feel so good. And the whole time the target you'd sent us to seek out? It was him."
Betrayal. Surely that was something Squall could understand. Because Seifer had seemingly betrayed him. It makes Nida sick to think about.
"I beat Boyce, his uncle. The man orchestrated it all. He was... the man I thought I loved died for him, thinking it was his own idea. And you never even knew I loved him. You NEVER would have let me go back to my room if you had. No one knew. No one knows."